Jun

30

This is it

June 30, 2006 | 5 Comments

Today is my last day doing daycare. Sure there will still be some of the same children coming to my house but I won’t be here with them all day. I’m ready. I’m not overly excited - I’m not sad. It just feels right. It’s time for a change. The self-doubt has lifted. I’m ready […]

Jun

28

So Busy

June 28, 2006 | 1 Comment

Why do I have so much to do before I start my job next week? I feel like every spare minute is being spent rushing to appointments, doing errands and having endless company. I’m not dying people, I’m going back to work in an office. *sheesh*
I have to take Nick to an orthodontist appointment. Go […]

Jun

27

Breaking the Silence

June 27, 2006 | 7 Comments

A week ago I announced that I’d secured a new job in a field I’d always dreamed of working in. And then I went silent. I don’t really know why. I think I freaked out a little at what I had done and what was happening. So much change. The most we’ve ever been through […]

Jun

20

I’m A Working Class Stiff

June 20, 2006 | 14 Comments

I got the job! The lead attorney actually offered me the position right there on the spot. It was all I could do not to jump up and down shouting “Yes, I’ll take it. Can I start tomorrow?” LOL Instead I thanked him for the offer, told him I needed to take it home with […]

Jun

19

Freaking Out

June 19, 2006 | 8 Comments

I have a job interview in 2 hours for a legal assistant position at the top law firm in our area. I sent in my resume on a whim and the attorney I would be assisting called me the same day he received it. I am freaking out inside. I went this weekend and bought […]

Jun

16

The Last Day

June 16, 2006 | 4 Comments

I wanted to start off by thanking everybody that left comments, IM’d me and emailed me. You all are so supportive and awesome and beautiful and I just can’t thank you enough. It’s hard to know what to say in these situations - I know that first hand - but I really appreciate any words […]

Jun

15

Am I That Strong?

June 15, 2006 | 5 Comments

Jeff always told me that if I stayed with him the perpetual dark cloud hanging over his head would rain on me too. I used to laugh it off, encourage him that it wasn’t true and go on about things. But I think I’m starting to believe him now. It seems like whether it’s little […]

Jun

13

Small Update

June 13, 2006 | 5 Comments

It’s late and I’m exhausted but I wanted to post a small update on things.

I’m sick
It’s the last week of school and the schedule is crazy
A friend of the family committed suicide last weekend
My interview called back and he wants to bring his children a couple times a week throughout the summer and that’s it.
I’m […]

Jun

12

Weekend Realizations

June 12, 2006 | 2 Comments

Okay, I’m back. Sort of. My internet connection is down this morning so I have to write this in Word and I’m hoping to be able to publish it later today. Usually in the spring with the heavy rains, we start having internet outages on and off for a good month or so.
So Friday’s interview. […]

Jun

8

Mending

June 8, 2006 | 7 Comments

I made it through the day yesterday doing as little as possible. I rested a lot and didn’t put my expectations of myself too high. It seemed to work as I feel a little better today. Not so crushed or in such a fair amount of pain. I am sore. I am tired. But this […]

Jun

7

Ouch

June 7, 2006 | 5 Comments

I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus. I knew it was coming, I felt all the signs, but I was not prepared for how hard this would hit. I was a little tired yesterday morning and was happy to cuddle up with Lauren after Jeff left for work. I missed my writing time, […]

Jun

5

Tidbits

June 5, 2006 | 8 Comments

Signs that my brain is fried this morning? I just spent the last 20 minutes clipping coupons at 5:30am. And strangely enough I can hear this steady hum in my ears that sounds much like a television channel when it’s off the air. You know the sound I’m talking about? Do channels even go off […]

Jun

4

Not Funny HaHa

June 4, 2006 | 6 Comments

Friday Elizabeth woke up and came out from her bedroom very serious and looking a little upset. She told me she had a bad dream and in it we were at the store together and I was lost. She couldn’t find me. It really hit me that she was not the one lost, it was […]

Jun

2

Perspective

June 2, 2006 | 8 Comments

So it seems I threw up a little on my blog yesterday. That was a lot of text I know - sorry. There was this stream of unconsciousness that happened. It was just flowing off my fingertips. If nothing else at the time it helped me feel a little less angry and renewed some compassion […]

Jun

1

Conflama

June 1, 2006 | 5 Comments

Conflict and drama all rolled into one. That’s my stepdaughter to a T. I’ve known her since she was 7 years old and she has always been that way. She has a true persecution complex - she believes that everyone is out to hurt her and has always played the victim. Her story is not […]