What Now?

I am trying so hard not to cry right now. And it’s stupid really. No one’s sick, no one passed away. I just feel like I got kicked in the teeth AGAIN and I don’t think I have the strength to deal with it anymore. My van is leaking antifreeze. I just put $450 into the whole brake system and now either the radiator needs to be replaced, the water pump is shot or the head gasket is blown. Whichever it is, it makes me nauseous. We can’t function with one vehicle and how the hell am I supposed to find the money to fix this one? I swear sometimes I think I’d like to just let them come re-po it. Cause yeah - I’m still making payments on the piece of shit AND sinking all this money into repairing it. The kicker? I owe more on it than it’s worth so selling it would leave me without a vehicle and yet still a bill to pay.

I’m just trying to get our financial shit together and I keep getting knocked on my ass every time I start. How am I supposed to keep my chin up? I keep thinking about the advice my best friend once gave me

Depression is simply anger without enthusiasm - so get angry.

She’s a very happy person, quite content with her life so maybe she knows what she’s talking about.