The dismal weather continues with soaking rains at night and overcast, humid days. We hardly get outside due to either the heat or everything being soaked. It’s making us all feel a little stir crazy.

My aunt came to visit during the day yesterday. She brought us fresh blueberries, raspberry jam she made herself and chocolate chip cookies for the kids. They always enjoy her visits. We talked some about my physical health and she fears that I have arthritis starting in my knees and ankles. As a lifetime sufferer from rheumatoid arthritis she was full of wisdom and advice on how to proceed and who to see to get myself back on the road to physical well-being. I have 4 children and a daycare I cannot let this slow me down.

I have been surfing some weight loss blogs and am really amazed by the strength and courage of so many of these ladies. I myself am starting to take babysteps towards changes in my exercise and eating habits. My biggest challenge is going to be the emotional component of eating. I am a compulsive binge eater and when I get in that mode it’s just like being an alcoholic, I don’t know how to stop. I am thinking of going with my best friend to her Weight Watchers meeting and checking it out. I’m not sure if I can afford to enroll in something like this but it makes sense to me intellectually that Weight Watchers has to work because they don’t use special foods or gimmicks - they teach you how to eat normal and healthy.

Other than my own life’s challenges Jeff’s life is full of turmoil too. His daughter has caused us to lose the money we gave her for the apartment in that she lied to us about the cost, made promises to the landlord about paying the difference, didn’t show up to do so so he started eviction proceedings and we found out from other tenants that the boyfriend was with her the whole time. She lied to us, right in our faces over and over again. There seems to be so much pain around me I wish there was a way to change it all. I hate feeling helpless.

Well I suppose I have been enough of a downer today.

Until next time…