The doctor’s sent the grandbaby home. Told my sd to watch out for jaundice as that could very well develop after the bumps go away. She is happy to be home with him and has already let her 15 year old sister “baby-sit”, i.e. watch him while she takes a nap. She’s got it made living with her mom, brother, sister and mom’s boyfriend. Built in babysitters galore. Wish I had some ;)

She did call me last night and tell me that she is getting her own apartment as of the 1st. It is in the same building as her mom so she’s not going far. Like I told Jeff though - she just barely tied the proverbial apron strings with her mom after wanting them for her entire life. So I understand if she wants to stay close for a while. And it gives everyone their own space without being too far.

I realize that there will be a couple of challenges for Granny Jules that I didn’t anticipate. I must learn to hold my tongue and not tell sd what to do with regards to her son. I’m not talking about holding my tongue over life threatening situations, just the little stuff.

Yesterday she went out for a bit and left the baby at home with her family and my gut reaction was “How could she leave him? I could never have done that. I held them and stayed with them all the time when they were first born.” But I must remember that I am not her, she is very scared of this new little baby, and being with him for 21 out of 24 hours is not exactly neglect. And it’s not like she left him in a car or home alone or anything. Just not something I would have done - but doesn’t mean she’s wrong and I’m right, just different. This one will be tough for me. I tend to speak my mind pretty freely, usually before thinking it through.

The other thing that will be hard for me is this twinge of jealousy I feel about the active, regular role sd’s mom is going to be taking in this whole process. This woman has not been there for 19 out of 20 years of sd’s life. And now she gets them all to herself. I have been given an open invitation to visit whenever I�d like � but being 45 minutes away that will happen once a week if that. I know it�s silly, it�s just hard sometimes taking a back seat to someone that wasn�t there all those tough years and just gets to reap the benefits now.

I think maybe I just need to catch up on my sleep :)