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July 11, 2007 |

Okay, so it’s obvious from yesterday’s post that maybe things on the marital front still aren’t so great. In my spouse’s defense, he has been dealing with chronic pain issues for a good 6 months now and has lost his desire to fight. It’s tough to see him give up. And I am one stubborn mother… and have a very had time understanding surrendering.

So I’m in week two of the new job and am having some regrets about taking it. One challenge lies in the fact that I was told the Director I replaced (that was supposedly leaving on good terms) would be here for the first two weeks to “train” me. She was here for 2 hours on the 4th day. The disenchantment I feel leads to insecurity about my ability to really do this job well. And that’s an important distinction for me. A lot of people encouraged me to apply for this job and believed in my abilities, I don’t want to let them, or me, down. I hate to fail but feel like I’ve been set up to do so in this instance.

The insufferable heat doesn’t help. It makes me cranky and tired. I hate to run air conditioning all the time but I hate feeling sticky and dirty too. My “green” guilt gnaws at my conscience. At least the kids have their pool - I don’t know what we’d do without it.

So stay cool my friends (or warm if you’re from Amy’s side of the world *waving to Amy*)!


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  1. cassie-b on July 11, 2007 4:23 pm

    I hope tomorrow looks better to you. And the heat certainly doesn’t help.

    Cas
    Hang in there!

  2. Amy on July 11, 2007 11:21 pm

    yep we’re staying cool here Jules - just gotten over a huge storm that’s done lots of damage around the region. As for your job, why did the person only train u for 2 hours? Is there any way they can send you on a course to catch up?

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