Leisurely Lunch
So again I’m on my lunch break, sitting in the break room. I think this will make the best time for writing as I’m alone each day and I’m a cheap-ass brown bagger. LOL
The job is going really well. Genuinely. I love it. There is plenty to do to keep me busy but it isn’t so overwhelming that I feel crushed by it all. In the past when I’ve been given large amounts of work I would go at a frenetic pace until it was done. Looking for validation each time. This time is different. This time I have chosen just to work steadily and what gets done, gets done and what doesn’t waits until tomorrow. And I’m happy – very, very happy. Not to say that there won’t be periods of time where the work is stressful and crushing but I feel confident – a new feeling for me.
Another change is this new found confidence in everything I’m trying. Instead of feeling trepidation at doing something I’ve never done before, I just jump in, do what I think is right and then if it isn’t I change it. I can feel the old, nervous perfectionist creeping in at times but I give her a shove and say “Uh, uh. Not this time.” The subject matter I handle is varied and stays interesting. I even get to become a Notary Public. How cool is that?
Throughout my days I have come across a lot of files of people I know. I’m working in the city I grew up just outside of and I went to the local, private Catholic High School in this city too. With a lot of the children of clients and even a lot of the clients. My father also used to work with the attorneys here quite often before he retired. Funny how things come full circle.
The kids are adjusting well – for the most part. The 2 littlest ones are having some minor issues but not too bad. Lauren has been coming into our bed every night around 3am and there’s little sleep to be had after that point but I really don’t mind much. I know now that this was really the right choice for me. I feel so different, so much better. It’s hard to put it into appropriate words. I appreciate my children more, I have much more patience with them and I feel a sense of accomplishment. I really like the new me.
Me, Me, Me, The Grindstone | Jules July 12, 2006
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Autumn, July 12, 2006 @ 1:06 pm
Oh!! I am just so happy for you! I’m glad this is working out for you!!
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mrs. diamond, July 12, 2006 @ 2:09 pm
I’m happy for you too!!
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Bev, July 12, 2006 @ 2:28 pm
And if Momma ain’t happy………ain’t nobody happy!! All the way around, this will be the best for your whole family!
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Northern Girl, July 12, 2006 @ 3:15 pm
Good for you. Really.
Print this post and tape it somewhere you can see it - every single day. Because a day may come that you second-guess not just your choice but your entire life, it happens to the best of us, and this will help remind you just why you are doing what you are doing. :0
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Amy, July 12, 2006 @ 5:02 pm
So glad it’s going well for you, I knew you’d love it, I did too :0) btw I too remember coming across some interesting files, others weren’t too pleasant to read.
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UnMartyred Mom, July 14, 2006 @ 4:07 pm
So glad to see so much support for your decision to do something for yourself. I invite you all to see and hear my story of what it really took to learn to take care of myself. Check out http://martyredmoms.com/ which describes the movie I made of my motherhood experience. Enjoy the site; it has games, suggested books and links, a pop quiz and a fun trailer. Join the UnMartyred Mom Movement.