I have been hiding from the world for a while now. It’s my typical MO when things are overwhelming me and have me feeling pretty down. I’ve even been hiding from my best friend - the one person you’d think I would turn to when things are going bad in my life. She and I have been best friends since we were 12 years old - 23 years - if anyone knows me it’s her.

So yesterday she reached out to me one last time to see about us getting together and I did write her back and talked about the surface layer of some of the things that have been bothering me. Besides yelling at me (in a good way) about not reaching out to her sooner she also left me with this quote -

Remember that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. So, either get enthusiastic or get happy!

I never really thought about it that way - as being anger in any form. But I guess I am angry, about a lot of things and I do the only thing I know how to do - stuff the feelings as far down as I can. So maybe I need to get enthusiastic and exorcise some of my anger.

Oh and my best friend - she’s coming over to visit on Saturday and give me the kick in the ass I need to get back to living again. That’s what I love about her the most.